One Last QuestionFor you.My lovely shadow.A question.Rhetorical.The answer.I don't give a f*ck.Last night.I slept.My mind at ease.Finally.Safe.Serene.Comfortable in my own bed.My nest of feathers.Red and white cocoon.Cuddles with my bunny.The cat purring at my feet.And you my darling shadow.How well did you sleep?
TrustNo one will ever again tell me.You're too ambitious.You're too forgiving.You're too trusting.Yes, Yes, Yes.Damn right I am.Why you wonder?Because that is the world I want to live in.I will never let go of my beliefs.I am a failure.I am wounded.I am betrayed.Yes, Yes, Yes.But I'm still right.Why you wonder?Because I have no guilt of hurting someone.
It is Time for Me to Trust YouIt was hard for me.To place trust.Plus the complications.Sensitive.For reasons.You know.I couldn't tell you.Back then.Words would catch.I would cry.To hear others utter.That awful word.How stupid I would feel.I still do.When we parted ways.I struggled to admit.That it was happening.It was an impossibility.My mind was in turmoil.I knew the truth.But it made no sense.I must be wrong.I am crazy.Today I still think I'm wrong.Beyond comprehension.It wasn't real.A film I saw.In my delusions.Transferred to me.I see now.Rather late.All the times I begged.That you place trust in me.I didn't reciprocate.You deserve better.Than such disrespect.Not much to do but learn.Impossible to change the past.I would like to correct my mistakes.At least I can do that.If you would permit me.Already you have proven worthy.Of my deepest love.Tho why you choose to take me on.Is quite a mystery.You will watch me fall.I warn you it will be hard.To go against human nat
The EpiphanyI'm on the edge.A grand epiphany.My Love.My Sweet.You ARE real.This is happening.How you've done it.Beyond me.Mind spinning.Disbelief.The impossible.Truly is occurring.Right now.A fortune.Unimaginable to me.This simple girl...Woman.In shock.Trying to digest.That the impossible.Is happening.I'm not crazy.I know why.Struggling.To humble.Unable to see.The truth as you do.I get it now.I am special.Faced adversary.One following another.Overcoming each.Stoic bravery.Fearless determination.Through each obstacle.Every wound.Every scar.Sculpture of life.The pain endured.Created me.Forged in hell.Emerging.An exquisite beauty.Every wrong.Every hurt.Inflicted upon me.Was a blessing.Lessons in compassion.Anger and resentment.Quickly dissipate.To forgiveness and love.I never expected.Anything like this.Finding contentment.In the simple life.I never asked.Nor wanted.Any recompense.I only want to help.Those in need.In the ways I can.Limited
The White CraneThe white crane.A symbol.I missed.I wondered.There were four.Maybe five.Slightly irked.Who and why?It hit me.Simple.I'm special.And you know?I AM special.
LoveLoveEtched in silver.Encircling my finger.Replacing.The elastic band.I wore for you.My life.A fairy tale.It is true.I am certain.Not dreaming.Or insane.Calm down.Breathe.When I awoke.The silver band.Of love.Took on new meaning.Chatting with a friend.Here in hospital.Suddenly this ring.Around my finger.Became mine.A ring for me.Promise of love.But not for you.For me.I promise.To love myself.When I forget.Those four letters.Will remind me.I am worth the world.
Three Eight SevenYou took my hand.Twenty minutes.We danced.Strange.They think I'm frail.I am exhausted.What I need.Respite.A rectangle painted red.Like the hanging rope.Outside the pain.Interesting.Leading to a yellow bench.Pondering it's meaning.Now I'm sitting here.Wondering.I understand more now.You won't hurt me.Nor I you.Happy.The game is fun again.I'm excited to play.My fear replaced.Curious.My sweet darlings.Questioning sanity.Ever the scientist.Need evidence.Tangible.I love you my shadows.My sweetest darlings.My Dear - My LoveKisses