Marvin

Wow.
The same sh*t.
From you.
I'm shocked.
But not really.
I guess.
I trusted you.
For life.

I didn't see it either.
But it's clear as day now.

It's ok.
I'm wrong.
I'm mistaken.
I'm whatever you say.

I'm to tired to argue.
I'm to tired to defend.
I'm to tired to apologize.
I'm to tired to repair.

And it's pointless.
Talking to a wall.
Set in your ways.
Not seeing the problem.
Or at least pretending.

Trust me.
Bad idea.
It gets worse.
I tried.

But learn the hard way.
Probably for the best.
That's how I learnt.

I could help.
I can offer my knowledge.
My experience.

But I can't be bothered to now.
I can't do anything anyways.
Not until you can acknowledge it.
It's right in front of you.
Open your eyes.

You have to ask.
I'm not going to push my ideas on you.
Not like you did.
I'm not going to be righteous.
Not like you were.

Cuz I know enough.
I know I don't know sh*t about you.
That is your business.
You chose not to share.
That is your right.
A right I took myself.

Think for a moment.
What do you know about me?
Nothing.
Have you asked?
Nope.
So stop assuming.
Remember the mnemonic.
Stop talking sh*t.

You don't know anything about me.
What I've been through.
What I'm going through.
What I'm doing.
How I've grown.

Take your space.
I will respect you.
More than I received.
From anyone.

I have to fight for it.
Daily.
With everyone.

How did this happen?
When did I lose my right to self-determination?
Was I ever permitted it even?

I need "protection".
Apparently.
Told over and over.
By you and you and you.
Until I believed.

I lost my ability to chose my own path.
Or was never given the chance.
Every decision requiring permission.
From you and you and you.

And now that I stopped asking.
Now I do my own thing.
I meet resistance, abandonment, guilt.

I don't consult.
Follow blindly.
Go against my own desires.
For this I'm ostracized.

But that's ok.
I can do it myself.
I know I can.
That's the point.
I don't need you.

Thanks for walking away.
Thanks for liberating me.
From repeating the same BS.
From falling back in the trap.

You are the problem.
And so are you
And so are you.

I have my problems.
But they aren't you anymore.

I offer my respect freely.
Respect is given automatically.
I don't demand you earn it.
It is through your actions that it is lost.
And you have lost a lot.
So have you.
So have you.
Now you must earn it back.

I have no time for you anymore.
I only have time for me.

Reconciliation is completely in your hands.
But by now the anger has built.
The resentment.
Because it was you.
Have fun fixing this betrayal.

You will meet resistance.
You will fight my wrath.
You will know my pain.

But Marvin still hangs on my bed.
He always will.